there were multiple dimensions.
sue & me driving.
getting off the highway.
in the town (parking lot).
at the house.
the other house across the street.
estimating the cost ($375,000 ?).
from a flood - a tidal wave?
if so, why not the surrounding houses.
noticing that they were empty and barren and made from things like stone.
noticing the strange towers of stone and pine and which appeared to have.
some kind of hearth.
climbing the one behind our house.
tipping it over, planning to fall between the slabs of each floor.
people across the street.
letters - something about a guy who followed her in high school.
parke outside her house for hours in the dark.
watching her through the window.
i was angry about this.
i think thats when the two twisted sisters appeared.
one was dark, one light.
they did have some kind of mother?
extras of the sisters.
lavender candies like from rotary drive/.
some other guy in a car.
even sue was starting to have doubles.
just not at once.
doubles along the highways encased in giant plastic tubes.
all seemed to be waiting or lounging.
dressed in different clothing different hair etc.
starting to notice the two aliens.

the multiple dimensions.
figuring out that these multiples are all travellers from parallel worlds like sue and me.
who lingered too long in this empty world.
and lost their focus and orientation, forgetting to leave.
sue and i agree on code word to identify ourselves for when we leave sight of one another (she is going into the house, i am exploring the extent of the doubles along this road).

but why is it empty?
so how come no doubles of me?
the sisters are everywhere.
and they are weird.
and somewhere, another sue walking free.
we do not near each other.

meeting sue again, but we never do check our code word.

through the house.
two beings.
(like a porch on the uphill side of the house - the beings against the house wall).
asking them questions.
which they did not seem to answer much.
but sometimes hearing whispered answers almost as if some other were instructing me.


who are you.
where did you come from.
why are there multiple selves here?
some of you (humans) have violated the continuum.
by taking your physical selves from dimension to dimension.
the correct mode is to move in mind only.
this warping is dangerous.
you cannot see it yet, because it is like seeing the fourth perpendicular axis to a human.
but the physical fact is that seeing yourself in another parallel world is as impossible as seeing yourself without a mirror.
nonetheless, we have taken precautions to prevent the travellers from stumbling across - a mirror.
so these multiple selves here you have seen (guesturing towards the sisters) cannot see their doubles even though you can see both simultaneously.
some are becoming dangerously unstable and we are holding them here for study.
until we can figure out how to stop this whirlwind of selves travelling between worlds.
before it becomes a hurricane.
that casts this region of spacetime.
into the void (like falling into a black hole. not even we know what lies beyond - death is universal to all life - even ours).

so there are other versions of me here as well.
yes (with a sideways glance - they are hiding something).
are some of them being detained here or did they all just get "stuck".
no answer.
well i'm not sure how i got here but i'll be leaving with my true wife as soon as i find the correct one (she is standing against the wall in front of me and we nod at each other. the aliens give each other a look (how do they know they're from the same world - either they are foolish or we had better be careful)).

where did they come from.
(as if this could be answered in a meaningful way to us).
asked the sisters if they were entirely human (aliens glare at this insight).
they looked sadly downward, too sad to look at each other.
apparently they did not know for certain.
they are experiments to add the alien (interdimensional) genetics into humans.
have they been altered in other ways to prevent a threat to the aliens?
(i don't dare ask this aloud).
(i never dared ask about me and sue).

to a large extent, life spreads as a phenomenon across the parallel worlds.
in this sense, we are definitely of extraterrestrial origin.
by the normal human understanding of "this earth".
but they do not indicate if it means more as well.
the aliens most of the time appeared as sue's father and stepmother.
the father keeps talking to us in normal human terms - isn't it time for you two to go home now - it's getting late.
sue comes back in from the kitchen and we pause to see if we're from matching worlds.

the stepmother taking her clothes off.
sue helping with the robe.
suddenly she is nowhere, but there is this sound coming from her.
its a strange kind of hum.
sue tells me that shes on the couch (joined red velvet folding chairs).
(standing over obstacles).
i grab at air, feel an invisible being.
traces visible in their vibration.
gold and grey stone obelisk.
its the hive.
she is summoning the unity of her selves across the various worlds.
in a sort of religious meditation.
like looking down a kaleidescope of selves.
i wonder briefly how sue knows this.

i realize the whole situation and continue my questioning.
but it's almost as if i am hearing one specific me talking to an unknown being in one of my specific dimensions.
the aliens see that i am beginning to understand.
i startle them by acting in harmony across multiple dimensions, turning to look at them and then looking away chaotically.
we are in just one of an infinity of parallel dimensions.
a continuum of similar worlds.
lines intersecting through and across them.
a radically different physics and causality.
missing matter in each is part of the connective tissue holding the worlds together.
one alien tells the other that they are doing an analysis of the degree of simple chaos across my selves and see that my chaos index has some downward spikes in it - they cannot yet be sure if its a trend - nor can they (its the limitation of this simple analysis that chaos can be measured but not predicted).
i will bear watching.

when the beings come together across multiple parallel worlds, it happens along a continuum.
their normal state of being is to have an awareness and a harmony across beings (their multiple selves) in multiple worlds.
the knowledge they gain this way makes them powerful and preserves them from the random acts of 'fate' which appear as logical events across multiple worlds but which still control us humans.
especially when the aliens act together.


but even they can go only so far.
the stepmothers meditative trance was to go further, much further.
towards what they called the implicit order.
which is itself not everything.
but it is all.
it represents the limitiations of divergence of histories.
and also the personality immanent in what is.
in short,
god.

the aliens have been using sort of slight of hand across the parallel worlds to create these images of father and stepmother.
i feel better knowing that her father is not with that creature.
yet i realize that the beings appear as sues father and stepmother because 'he' is part of her heritage somehow - of course this is how she knows about them.
but that still leaves me wondering about me.
i can also see that male and female are not the same to them because they require collusion across multiple parallels.
they are therefore radically different than humans.

i go on to a new stage of questions.
but i know i have not asked something important.
i go on, knowing that i may not yet have enough strenght against the aliens to reveal how far i have gone by asking them this.
i also know that i have help somewhere in one of my parallels.
some being giving me actual answers.

that is why you have banned this physical travel between dimensions, isn't it?
becuase of your radically different consciousnes, you don't really need to in the first place.
but also, what this (your multi-parallel consciousness) means to your awareness is that you WOULD be able to see your multiple selves if you travelled physically.
for you, it would be like looking into the mirror on acid.
and would carry dangerous possibilities of you massing physical force in an empty world.
creating the ablility for an attack that would be hard to resist.

????(rather, you use a kind of condensation of the parallel selves into one world to enable what appears to us to be hyperdimensional travel between the stars)??????

rather, your awareness of the parellel worlds (which IS a QUANTUM phenomenon, not a true continuum) allowed you to develop a virtual sub-quantum technology for interstellar travel - it follows, but is not immediately obvious to humans, that when these virtual sub-quantum measurements go to infinity, create some unique solutions that in fact specify coordinates of the parallel universe- this was about as difficult for you as for us to see that air has substance and invent mechanical flight. you can, like a person jumping, move a few feet through space at a time. the fact that humans cannot easily make the mathematical jump from your sub-quantum parallel technology to a full realization of parallel worlds is what enables you to share your technology with us - although you must know that this cannot last forever. sooner or later, we will figure it out.

this is why we need such strict controls on who has access to our technology and must condition their loyalty. we have found humans to be remarkably adaptive and pliable. we believe that a few generations are necessary to develop the understanding and restraint to prevent humans from using this technology incorrectly. your inablilty to see in multiple dimensions will prevent you from intentionally misusing the technology, but we must still eliminate the risk of accidental misuse by instilling the proper caution - and fear.



the implicit order occasionally develops imperfections.
and these become manifestations.
or messengers.
from the order itself.
like angels.
much a.
i know that the angel is talking to me secretly.
flitting from world to world in conversation with me to avoid being noticed.
knowing that i can be dimly aware of this as i have begun to see the truth of parallel selves.


the aliens catch some glimpse of my thought - again they catch me with an eye to a parallel world.
they worry that the implicit order may have sent some agent of vengance to punish them for their hubris. although they are taking care to prepare us (via our own culture) for their appearance (in case some humans, on seeing them, become multiply aware - it has happened in some test cases - it is not clear if our prophets are perhaps some of these) they are nonetheless planning on incorporating some part of us into them - THE REASON FOR THIS IS STILL UNCLEAR but its still not clear if sue and i are results of alien experimentation as well

i realize that there is in fact a parallel me being held here, but i do not look at it. i realize that the sisters are a failed experiment - they are incapable of seeing their selves from parallels - i realize also that i have never seen more than one sue at a time and that they may have partially suceeded in her case.
(i think that she is a splice, rather than being an experiment from birth) and that i am a threshold success - but they do not yet know this - nor do they know, as i now do, how far i can develop.

i wake up next to sue and wonder if she is dreaming the same dream.

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